Bitter Escape

MOE Leadership camp

2009-05-29T07:27:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,
I am wondering when was the last time since I last pinned fonts on you.
Have you ever coercing me to express my thoughts on you dutifully?
Come to think of it, it wouldn't be a pleasure to blog if you have the mechanism to bug me to
list and pen down my daily activities and thoughts everyday.
I understand the importance of liberal and doing things at your own pace.
Don't force yourself into doing things that you dislike. Even sometimes, you may feel obligated,
but it wouldn't be fair to another party as they would not like us to patronize them as well.

I just returned from MOE Leadership camp organized by Trybe. It was at Vision Farm near old Chua Chu Kang road. I was given the role of facilitator together with Zm and the rest to drive the international scholars from various secondary schools in Singapore and guide them throughout the whole programs.

I always tell myself that the experience of teaching especially when we get to spend time with the students in camp is invaluable. I was impressed by the professionalism of their conducts, willing to co-operate and initiative-taking especially in the project where each group of students have to come up with dining ideas and decorations to serve the other groups.

They could segregate themselves into 3 divisions- logistics role where they were required to come up with the estimated cost of utensils and transportation , food division where they sought opinions from people about the food and beverage being served and the layout department who were in charge of the arrangement and decoration of the place which was provided.

Every games and projects, all of us were encouraged to speak up and voice our reflections and opinions. It was better to give compliment even though certain results were not up to our satisfaction. This camp was so different from all the camps that I had attended before.
Beside much of the enrichment that the whole events exude, it has etched quite a remarkable memory at the back of minds for most of us. One thing i like about the camp is the air-conditioned room. Haha.

I waited for taxi which I had scheduled to pick me up at the end of the camp to meet a friend at Kranji and I was already late. It had made me waited for a dreading 25 minutes long. The cab that the other facilitators had arranged, arrived within 5 minutes despite that I left the camp much much much earlier than them. I called the service again and complained about the intensity of waiting. I could feel the sound of my heartbeat pounded rapidly as the scorching heat from the sun soaked me with perspiration as I waited. Before I attempted to cancel the service and called for a new one, a glimpse of blue color sedan finally appeared from the road. That gave the driver final hope of getting income from me.

Confession of the sportsman

2009-04-08T06:49:00.000-07:00

On the rough journey back, the body was extremely dehydrated.
What I see with my sight is the vision of drought and sore.
Whimpering out loud for some comfort or magic potion to earn extra flow of rhythm that is capable
of bringing me home.
How I wished Anton can fetch me from his work since he use to dismiss around that clock.
Feeling the rough and uneven itch that has just protruded on my palms and fingers,
I flashed back at how the program was carried out.

Every slides of the training sets and activities drift past slowly to the back of my mind.
And I loathe the running part when all of our protein synthesis had reached the limit, and we had to cover the given distance within a given time.
Most confessed that it was much tougher than 'National Service'.
I am always the last one in the race though it was not that bad.
Many times my legs fail me to control my pace. I tell myself that if I were to stop,
I would be affecting the team morale and there could be a possibility that I would repeat such a pessimistic attitude again.

Sometimes determination would mean "completing the race, regardless of how far behind you are compared with the rest".

I closed my day, whispering a short prayer, confessing to Father that I couldn't live without sports. Thanks for giving me this daily bread.

2009-03-30T09:42:00.000-07:00

Upon leaving Clementi station on Sunday morning at 8.30 am, I didn't realize that one of my former Cell Group member, Ruwei was at the bus stop. It reminded me of how tiring and reluctantly I used to wait at the station to go expo for services. Love the morning weather.

Yuan Qi, Ayush and me

Paddle, vest and rubber pad are onNUS Boat B crew were boarding the junk boat

Whole Boat! Hard Ten! Ready! Go!Last Charge!on the finishing line!
This picture is too small. But our boat B made it second in this semi final with a surprising timing of 2 minutes and one second plus.
The race has been officially cancelled due to bad weather. So this was our last race for Sunday.
The organizer could not bear to postpone to another day due to financial constraint and manpower issue.
By timing alone, NTU, neophytes, Safra won the medals.
I could see the disappointment in certain faces. At least we know where we stand. Gonna gear up for Prime Minister CUP in JUNE!

It was a long day and I was invited by Jesmine to watch a dance performance, "uncensored" in NUS in the evening. Since she got 2 free tickets, I asked Anton along. I was glad that I could watch it together with my him as I was not sure when was the first time that I watched a concert together with him.

How we wished we could sit in front to have a good peek at the girl dancers. Haha!

2009-03-28T09:29:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

It was a clear Saturday morning. I went with NUS dragonboat crew to Bedok Reservoir for men's open and mixed open 2009.
Despite of not being the rower, I was not disappointed as I understand that I am still a new breed in the team of 3 weeks. In fact, I was glad that I was given the opportunity to witness such teamwork, 'never say die spirit', enthusiastic and the optimism that the team portray even after knowing that our greatest rival, NTU had clocked the timing just 2 minutes and few seconds away. This timing is considered very good as it is slightly in par with the national team.

Let's see the size of the strength. NTU has 3 boats with full crew of 20 men, 4 boats of mixed crew while we only have 2 boats with full crew of 20 men and 1 boat of mixed crew. All of us got into semi finals that was held on the following day, Sunday.

The NUS women crews have always been the finalist contenders with both boats grabbing 1st and 2nd position.

These Hard Times

2009-03-14T09:14:00.000-07:00

Morning falls like rain as you try to wake up early,
Yet the sleep is too tempting as it drown you deeper into those endless dream.
I miss out the goodness of morning as I skipped the water training which started at 8 am.
There goes another night as I spent the rest of my day at home doing assignments.
I miss my mom, dad and Anwari. I miss my family.

As I went down to buy lunch, I feel like I am losing my breath in waves.
Knowing that every crash is bleeding the hourglass.
Everyone keeps talking, but they don't mean anything.
I like the peace whenever I am alone.
Though at times I feel empty. It seems imbalance.

My friend has just ended her 2 years of relationship.
It was disheartening to hear that.
We may lose focus in our life.
There are just too many words we are never meant to learn.
I hope that you could be strong.

I walked the same old path when I was getting my dinner.
At the junction, I was staring at the traffic light.
I was wondering how it would be like to cross the pedestrian way with the red light.
Perhaps it would give you peace. But it is foolish to live in such way that repletes with regrets.

All we need is some relief. Through these hard times.
Keep on praying and talk to him.
For he is there to protect your naked soul.

With love,
Arif

2009-03-13T09:44:00.000-07:00

Bespectacled fellas

On our way home from Vivo after 'Marley and Me' show

No lorry but Bus!

2009-03-10T10:07:00.000-07:00

Our finance and accounting lecturer never fail to crack us the joke.
Here was what he shared last week.

Falling in love- Dopamine
- this is the drug which make us feel like we are in heaven and makes us have alot of energy but require us to rest very little. Its effect is close to that of some drugs but with no side effects. However this chemical typically last only for 4 years.

Then how do boy-girl friends and married couple stay together after 4 years?

Staying in love- Oxytocin
- this is the chemical that makes us have a sense of bonding and connectedness. This is the chemical that keeps married couple and long term couples together even when the effect of Dopamine is gone.

At the end of the day, it doesn't really matter what chemical is reponsible for what or when it will use up. What matters is the need for each of the partner in the relationship to keep contributing to the relationship and keep stimulating the production of these love chemicals.

Counterfeit

2009-03-08T10:47:00.000-07:00

It was a clear fine day after my land training in NUS Sports and Recreation Centre with the team.
The drain and exhaustion makes my day feel worthwhile.
I begin to feel that school life is not just about studies.
Zm, Rafael and Jireh came over to fetch me for supper in Johor Bahru at 11.30 pm.
Upon reaching the custom checkpoint, I realized that I had careless taken my brother's passport.
I was at loss and I was tempted not to spoil their days, so I thought that it could be fine to show the officer my brother passport.
The officer was sceptical about the passport photo as it does not resemble me at all.
It dawned on me if I could get through Singapore, I would never return Singapore without my original passport. So I decided to disclose the truth.
I was not sure if my name was being listed as criminal as I saw another officer scribbled my name in the file. I apologized and I whispered a few words of thanks to God that I was exempted from the penalty of being jailed and fined of 10k for using different passport.
There went my 2 hours wait for them to finish their supper before picking me up at the checkpoint.
I didn't mind going home without supper as I have caused so much trouble. Somehow we had supper at Upper Bukit Timah. Upon reaching home, I realized that Zm and Rafael went there just to accompany me for supper.

2009-02-22T09:06:00.000-08:00

We used to be so close in the past.
As years fly past,
the hectic schedules and commitment drift us further apart.
Even when we see each other sometimes,
it seems like we have perceived each other differently.
Somehow we have treated each other like a stranger.
I thought that we could still retain the bondage deep,
regardless of the amount of days that we do not come across each other.
And I learnt that we have failed to understand each other.
And I know that we definitely disappoint those who care in our lifetime.

I hope to build the house of this bondage back.
Using the proper materials to solidify the foundation of this structure firm and unwavering.
not knowing where to start, and knowing that it ain't easy
but I have faith;
that God will execute his will on our pieces
pieces of doubt
pieces of wrongfulness
pieces of brotherhood
pieces of love
the pieces of life

"Friends are friends forever, if the Lord is the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never, cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands I know
That a lifetime's not too long... to live as friends."
-Michael W Smith -

Lost Generation

2009-02-21T09:00:00.000-08:00

I have read this on a tube somewhere.
It was pretty interesting to know how people can play with the sentences to express.
Talking about the world ans the society at large.
Here it goes.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I realize this may be appaling
"Happiness comes from within"
is a lie, and
"Money will make me happy"
So in 30 years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life
My employer will know that
I have my priorities straight
Because
work
is more important than
family
I tell you this
Once upon a time
Families stayed together
But this will not be true in my era
this is a quick fix for society
experts tell me
30 years from now, i will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce
I do not concede that
I will live in the country of my own making
In the future
Environmental destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
My peers and I care about this Earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope

And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it.
(Read from the bottom and continue all the way up)

2009-02-08T04:17:00.001-08:00

James Morrison - One Last Chance - James Morrison

2009-01-22T20:34:00.000-08:00

Everytime I woke up,
I would have this feeling which is peculiar and strange.
It never cease to keep me wallowing into something
just like a child who is seeking for maternal comfort.
I would ask myself if I should gonna live my day whimping and groaning,
hoping that my day would turn out fine?
Am I bearing a self-deception formula at the back of my mind?
There is a weird language hitting my head
I still couldn't interpret it myself.
Am I lost?

I went to Bernard's grandpa funeral at Bedok.
The atmosphere was solemn and sober.
The mood was inexplicable.
We can stay bitter, but we have to accept the fact that everyone has his time
I pray that you will be strong.
Take care.

2009-01-16T20:48:00.000-08:00

I did some housechore today; vacuumed my room and living room, tidied up my brother's and my bed as well as changing the bedsheets and
cleared up the laundry. I feel a tinge of accomplishment whenever I finished the chores since my hectic schedules often thwart
these incentives.

I love things to be in order.It does give me a positive outlook whenever I wanna start doing something.

Unfortunately, my place is internet deprived. It seems that i can barely live without experiencing dotcom platform.

The bill is threatening, revealing digits with wrath; reaching 300 plus Sgd.
Oh dear, I believe that figure won't last long as all of the 300 men died during their battle with the Persians.

2009-01-13T20:40:00.000-08:00

The finance and accounting lecturer was quite sophisticated.
He introduced himself by showing clips of him when he was young.
It was short and simple. I managed to conclude what I have learnt from the lecture.

Let's see...

Ever wonder Why is it so difficult for us to find love in this corporate world today?
Let's evaluate your assets, deduct the amount of your bad habits deduct from your good habits,
and see how much is your net worth.
I am very afraid that my bottomline is in negative. Haha

Sigh, my bank statement is experiencing a deficit soon and I can hear myself crying out loud.
I made a short prayer to tame my mind down.Believing that God will meet my needs.

2009-01-10T20:38:00.000-08:00

Here's my work.

Counting down

2008-12-31T03:07:00.000-08:00

It was our last visit to Celebrity Fitness. We felt drained and strained.
So we decided to attend a more relaxed class- Yoga lesson.
All the bend, flex, stretch, curve were tougher than we expected.
Instead of pursuing comfort piece of relaxation mood, we suffered and sweat profusely throughout the lesson.
My brothers would never fail to make me giggled unprofessionally with their natural postures of bending.
Anwari was one of a kind, decent and innocent just like me. Haha
But he would threaten to smooch if i tease him. I told my whole family about what he would do to me at night. *Not something that you can think of*

Jack came over to my place as usual. I have gone to KTV with him thrice so far.
It seems that i have started to pick up new hobbies by playing with my vocal ability- LOW VOICE
But this time round he wanna bring us to a secret place where we would conduct a countdown together with Anton and Anwari.
The city sky was decorated with loud dazzling colorful flowers; a sight that you often witness in esplanade during big events.
I remembered vividly how I got his SUV scratched when he asked me to take the wheel days before.
The mess is not something that you can think of:
I witnessed that some traffic light don't even function at all.
Sometimes, red and green light would lit together.
As the car sped along the expressway, the rustling noise of wind and the roaring of Suzuki Swift engine annoyed my ears.
The only pleasant things are tunes of James Blunt tracks from my Ipod that played through the car speaker.
The entry ticket to club, X2 is not cheap. it worths $28 per head. and I don't see that it worths that much.
That rich Jack subsidized for us and even opened a bottle of Chivas.
Anwari and I dislike alcohols.
Whenever I asked for healthier drinks; juice or milk,
Jack would say "C'mon Rif! This is one of the rare occasion. Make your entry worthwhile. Just enjoy yourself!" I wondered how many times I have heard that phrase. It seems that the phrase doesn't work well on me again.
I enjoyed the night chill during the pre-countdown and the work-out during post countdown on the dance floor. It was the first time for Anwari to hit the club.
To my amaze, he did the groove better than all of us.
People always comment if Anwari and I are twins.
Well, he is definitely better looking than me alright.

Happy New Year God
Happy New Year Folks
Happy New Year Pals
Happy New Year to you.

2008-12-30T02:55:00.000-08:00

My week was simple and delectable with my life boat to row on.
My cousins lent us at least 10DVDs of latest movies to hit our eyes on.
So we decided to purchase a new DVD player set to unzip all these digital contents right before our eyes.
Anton, Anwari and I hit our usual routine; run, body combat and cycling lesson sometimes.
I wondered why I had so much stamina this afternoon as I was able to sustain my condition for more than 2 classes. It all thanks to the energy booster that Anton got for us.
Anwari kept whining and moaning in torment during combat lesson.
When the lesson had come to an end, he exclaimed in his heart loudly 'Finally it's over!'
And when he thought that all of us could wash up and go home,
He was shocked that Anton & I went to cycling room, our 3rd round of classes for today.
I would never forget the expression that he pulled on his face. It was hilarious and comical.
We always ended our visit with steambath and sauna.
Well, I don't mind if I don't have much friends in Indo.
I am contented by spending time with just 2 of my siblings.
They are my everything.

There's no other love like the love for a brother.
There's no other love like the love from a brother.

~Astrid Alauda

Here I come JKT

2008-12-21T02:41:00.000-08:00

My dad accompanied me to get a new hearing aid. We would have missed the date of collecting that piece if we choose to delay our visit. Their holiday is at least 1and half weeks long starting from 23Dec-4Jan.
I was distressed and upset of the outcome of my hearing capacity after the audiometry test.
But I expected the downward trend anyway.
I feel helpless that I can't do much to improve my capacity. I can't even sustain my audio level at the satisfied level.
Sometimes I have been asking myself how it is like to have a normal audio level.
Perhaps getting my task accomplished in a shorter time period?
Perhaps getting the clearer picture of what to do?
Perhaps I would use less of the word 'pardon me'?
Perhaps like what you say, would i still be 'Arif'?
Well, i wouldn't be thinking of all these which are unreachable.
But it does give hope knowing that the better day comes without you realizing it.
I believe that I'd have the perfect piece when I go to heaven one day.

I miss my Mom and Dad and my younger Brother, Anwari.
My dad deliberately gave us the name starts with 'A' for 3 of us.
So we will be one of the first who will be called out as arranged in the class index.
Anton ( My elder), Arif ( Me) and Anwari ( My younger)

I feel protected here as if every aspect of my life is being taken care of.
I don't have to worry about the lack of my necessities.
I miss the orderliness of the table rules that my family adopts:
No late meals;
3 meals/day;
No grain of rice should be spotted on the plate after meals;
All family members should eat together.

2008-12-14T07:17:00.000-08:00

It seems that no matter how hard I try to comprehend,
I would never get the key to unlock the mystery of my mind.
Only people around you, those who truly care,
bother to zip out the code and unleash it.
Thanks for being there Pal.

This holiday is hectic for me. I have been working ever since I finished my paper last 2 weeks ago.
I put my work in Apple on halt and joined ZM with his new project.
We rented a car and ventured Resident Committees around Singapore
to record their respective courses that they offer.
We were given one week to accomplish the task,
but we finished them in 3 days.
The songs of Love Story, You are not sorry and Lady Gaga kept pouring out of the car blaster.
Soon enough, I fall in love with Taylor Swift's voice.

~Taylor Swift~

What if your girl can sing like that,
You said that it is not important.
Which mean you already have someone in your heart (Haha)

2008-12-08T07:51:00.000-08:00

Dear foodie,
I was quite upset after losing my hearing aid last week at Gym toilet.
That audio device costs me nearly 1.2k.
I know that I have to accept the fact and get over it.
Like what you said, no matter how much anxiety you place over the loss,
how much you wish that some kind-hearted soul would return it to the administrator,
save your energy and keep the incentive of being paranoid, as it doesn't change the reality.

I went for O school recital concert at Singapore Polytechnic today.
Which was a hesitated decision after going through the dilemma of meeting Aaron and Gilbert.
Jesmine happened to have an extra ticket for me.
But I didn't regret of catching the concert. The choreograph was fantastic and awesome.
Especially on the reggae and LA house.
I managed to catch up with my O mates.

Frederick used to choreograph with me for the Boys' Brigade.
I was so proud of your performanceHere's my buddy from Project O
Joe, Me and Aaron
Chewie, Iris, Aaron, Jasmine, Me and Joe

I left my shoe bag which contained my 3 years old basketball shoes in the hall.:(

This holiday could seems bleak.
The year 2008 offers a narrowed path which is full of threat and torment.
If you feel that the events are not in favour with you,
Do not fret, for such ordeal make you a stronger person.

Is Ipod is your best friend?

2008-11-30T20:15:00.000-08:00

Even until the world is through, it remains faithful and unconditional.
keeping all the same songs that you love to listen.
Even when the wall seems to close up on you,
the music will still keep on playing.
Even when you did badly for your papers,
somehow it could teleport your mind to somewhere else.
For certain reason, the melodies are like double edge swords.
It could perform a miracle and provides us contentment sufficiently deep,
but it could also increase your emotional threshold further after reminiscing the events that happened in the past.
But I am a biased owner,
only Coldplay, James Blunt and James Morrison can appease my appetite.
You are a biased owner too.
Don't you dare to deny.

I caught up with Zm a little bit yesterday after my work.
As the days go, he becomes sweeter and more chaste.
Haha.
I am not gay alright. But I admit you are just damn outright sweet.

'Sweet nectar'
So who inherit you with handicraft talent?
Facing below esplanadeThis shot gonna be different in the morning
Anyway, I love the gift.

It was just a one day work at Sitec.
One of my boss will never fail to say this sentence when he sees me.
'Arif, nobody like you lei' in a friendly way
and he will never fail to give me a meal treat.
The supper at HK Cafe(Katong) was exactly his treat for all of us
in the hope to blow some wind to our scorching feet that
were the outcome of the incessant sales requirements.I got home at one wee hour in the morning.

When the world seems to crumble on you,
remain strong and faithful to him.
For good thing will happen to you in another aspect,
which is totally part of his plan.

Coming to an end

2008-11-27T11:36:00.000-08:00

November 27, Morning

Daily Light As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also.

Not every one that saith, ... Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. Holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord. Add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge; and to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness; and to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity. For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But he that lacketh these things is blind, and cannot see afar off, and hath forgotten that he was purged from his old sins. Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall.
By grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God: not of works, lest any man should boast.

Gone are the days of marathon for my brain,
uncertain if I am in the tortoise in the rabbit race.
All I know is that I wanna try with all my might to run like a rat first.
I studied in school for whole days during weekends.
Skipping few meals in the pursuit of completing past year papers,
isn't easy especially with my empty stomach.
I am impressed of Jesmine's sheer determination to revise with us(me and Gerard)
during those days. Even though she stays so far away from school.

Either way, I do not have any regret at all even if I don't do well for the papers,
as I have given my all. I reminisced about those period when I studied for A level.
Those times were so much more convenient, simple and easier compared to my current workloads now.

Although the race is over for me, I have to resharpen my gears and tools to anticipate for the next race again. If only we take it as a learning process rather than a mere chore, I can hardly imagine how much enjoyment we will have in learning.
Regardless of all, like what you said is true to me. I can't live without studying. It has been part of my life.

I went to meet RY after my last paper today and caught 'Chihuahua' in action. What impressed me most is the German Shepherd and his obligation not only to his main profession, but his obligation as a loyal friend. This is not a conflict of interest, but rather practicing professionalism and this is in line with what I am studying for professionalism module. Haha!
I got a sweet Blackie RL from her.

I met Aaron, Gary and Gilbert afterwards. I wanna play host and it seems that I didn't do well
due to insufficient savings. All I could hope for is just a smile and your time. Nothing else is that
imperative to me for this special day of mine.

2008-11-24T05:34:00.001-08:00

I just feel the need to share this thought.

We are really fortunate...

Revision Ethicality

2008-11-21T01:42:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I just finished my first paper yesterday. Blame it on my clumsiness, I discovered that it was supposed to be an open book test at the moment when I started to patronize the 'dull' four-legged structure, displaying the intimidating piece of white paper. Although it was just a sheet of paper, tinge of fear repletes me throughout the first fifteen minutes of the session.

I told myself that providing good answers does not has strong positive correlation with the amount of resources you bring in to the exam hall. I still believe that 'calmness' plays a greater role during examination. It is a quiet and strong necessity to propel your mind to think further.
After saying so much, I hope I don't screw up my paper.

I studied with Kystle, Timothy and Gerard at BK in Holland Village. Afterall, I haven't touched at least 2 modules that are gonna commenced next week. I have no time to contemplate why i have to finish six papers within a week. (First paper on thurs, last paper next thurs).

Dining with XO sliced fish mifen was delectable last night. There's no time to waste and I guess i will miss the whole Asia Conference this year.

Anyway, I caught Brock Lesnar vs Randy Couture on tube, the Ultimate Fighting Championship (UFC). The fight was short but intriguing. I hope another new season of UFC comes out soon. Cant wait to glue my eyes on it.

~To be continued (mugging hard now)~

High on black and white

2008-11-06T07:02:00.000-08:00

I am running wild on the black and white terrains.
Clutching every single notes and tunes.
Nothing is pleasing to the sight than what enter the auditory canal,
You are like my car for me to speed on.
Tool to express my emotion all over!
Sometimes it's hard to believe that you do not remember me
Except the time comes when i try to touch you.
A good song could bring me up to the sky,
But it could drain me down to the core abyss sometimes.
I cant stop to play 'Numb' by Linkin Park on you.
Like what Mike Shinoda says: "Practice makes perfect"

~My Ferrari Black and White Keyboard~

Mid West Sixth Avenue

2008-10-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

Dear Foodie-Diary,

I just finished simulation lab test. I bet most of us gonna do well for this test as it was exactly the same as our past year paper. You could see flashes of 'darlie' on everyone front. I decided to join the rest of ISE peeps to go Siong Tai's place at Sixth Avenue. The mid-autumn atmosphere over there is simply exuberant. Lover-park, old sunday activities, pine trees add up to that atmosphere.

Trees and roads seem to be appealing for appeasing strolling especially with your closed ones. I thought his house is extraordinary, but it is actually a 'Hanging Garden' from Babylon!

Boardgames and food are ubiquitous. Joshua came over to share his expertise on music.

We played this game which requires us to chant "R-O-C-K, ROCK!" clap clap, "Let's play" clap clap, "Play what" clap clap, "ISE PROFESSOR" clap clap, and so i shouted out load with sheer confidence "LEE KUAN YEW!" clap clap. There goes the sucky forfeit on my throat.
I will never be like Zhiyong who hit himself so hard with malibu and vodka.

Pond of 9 fishes

A share of golden Retriever
It reminded me of Gary's sister's goldie which is at Katong.
She would never cease to jump on Aaron and me during those days.
We played W.Eleven at your small yet functional TV.
It seems that your skills have improved so much after we challenged.
How I miss those days..
With besties from CCHB..

Someday...
I would like to laze around and gaze the sky shrouded with cloud.
Only tunes of James Blunt and James Morrison flood my mind.

With your eyes close and heed your spirit to pray

Blade to 21st

2008-10-18T09:14:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,
My week has been so hectic as if it has eaten up my time vehemently. And I have missed out reciting certain part of my week with flow. Whenever you are too busy, most of us always feel that time is running out so fast; like images of trees and houses went past you as you speed up on the road and it seems that you miss out the location that you wanna visit. Ever thought of you being so busy, then you will forever be busy. Haha.

Zm stayed over at my place last Sat. Unexpectedly, my brother's friend came over to spend the night as well. He wore zm's tee which was stranded on the lousy chair in the living room. The din that zm made in the morning was unsightful but hilarious.

We went to Life Bible Presbyterian for Sunday session with God. I love the way they projected the hymns vocally. The atmosphere was simply heartwarming for us.

Off the activities we had in East Coast Park. It was my first time to roller blade. But second attempt for him. The moment I tried to stand up with the roller on my feet, I keep asking myself how is it possible to balance! Every centimetres I covered with the roller was an achievement to me. Both of us were faltering incessantly and almost threaten other patrons at the park. Two hours are never too long to roll. I would love to set my feet on the gears again after my exams.

Am I wearing 'Aldo shoes'
or I am a natural giant?
Let's salute our day for comfort and peace.
I apologized if the dinner was not up to your likings.
But I still find their servings unique.
Henceforth we ended our day witnessing zm smooching the choco brownies.
Hope all of us have a wonderful week ahead!

Romans 4:20
He staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief; but was strong in faith, giving glory to God

Mount Sophia

2008-10-16T07:11:00.000-07:00

"The Camera flashed, capturing the moment on film for all eternity"
How i wish i own a DSLR camera to take great shots.
It is so E-X-P-E-N-S-I-V-E!

Although the sky seems intimidating and dreading,

the color and the structure of the building could still tune along with the phase quite well.
Like you say, it is indeed blessing in disguise. In times of tremendous pressure and tribulation, you stay strong and more beautiful. The fairest flowers grow in the alpine-snow solitudes. The noblest statues bore the most blows of chisel. The rarest gem has been cut many times by lapidary's wheels.

This Lamp is more formidable than any of the lamp posts that you know amid the bad weather condition.
For it is the only lamp that has caught my attention.
It is more of the substance rather than its physical structure that you see in this lamp.
Does its character remind you of anyone?

This picture that I took reminds me of the story by Dorian Gray. "High-life yet complicated"

Hagen Daaz

2008-10-14T09:13:00.001-07:00

Wanna hear a story?

Here comes a boy who wish that he can be a scientist.

But end up trying to imitate one of Timberlake's move.
Which ain't that smooth.
The moment i mention about him being a comedian,
He would give me this expression.

Until one day, when I saw this magazine.
It was happen to be someone I know.
It was Hagen Daaz!

Your brother told me that you know Brenda in your kindergarten.
But where is she now?
Anyway, the poster resembles you.
I took a shot at you secretly.
Wonder why you always get bullied by your brother
You weigh as much as me.(75Kg)
That was my last session with you.
I am not sure when will I be able to see you again.
Hopefully, enroll in your fave Saint Andrew.
All the best!

Tales of mommy

2008-10-14T08:51:00.000-07:00

I taught her bit on piano
Isn't she amazing?

It all started with a simple gift; Love.
You are amazing and wonderful.
Always being so patience with us.
Never weary of showing concern by nagging.
Yet sometimes, we fail to set aside time for you.

Sometimes, courage would mean hugging your own mom.
Give a tap on her shoulder and let her know she doesn't has to worry.
Let her know you are doing well.
Just a simple flash of her teeth could simply warm you with glow.
Just like the stage of the sky at 6pm in Singapore.

No words could express my love.
All you ask for is simply our obedience and time.
You earn our immense respect.
Thank you!!

Dedicated to my beloved mom.

Homely Saturday

2008-10-04T05:30:00.000-07:00

How I wish I could walk through the door of my mind
Pick up every single broken materials that could be found and mend them back.
Words seem harsh to be comprehended when the mind is tied up.
Illogical expression is costly with confusion cerebral state.
I keep running in circles, and afraid that i will end up in tails.
Surely, there is a trace for me to pick up.
Gearing up my gut to move forward with rushing current against my feet.
For the race has not ended, which I have started long time ago.

I met chee keong in PS today.
Did some catching up.
We reminisced about N203, which seems to be the most conducive group we have ever been.
I regret that I didn't cherish those time.

~I miss a spiritual brother~

Tummy sober

2008-10-04T04:48:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,
I just get to move to my my new place, Bukit Batok this week.
Just have a slight regret that I move this far.
Far and cut myself out from the rest.
The week is not going well for me.
Messed up my stats test which was scheduled on Tuesday morning.
I left the table distribution on my desk that morning before getting my feet on the heat.

The food poisoning I had, was not really expected.
after eating yong tau foo from my school canteen.
It wasn't that bad as NUS clinic offers free medical consultation and prescriptions.
The pain commenced as I approached my door step.
Just to find out that no one at home and my key is with my mom.
It wasn't easy as I was struggling, on the verge of unconsciousness before I could tolerate the sour pinch in my stomach.

Questions suddenly came across my mind; do cancer patients feel the hit much more than what I am facing now?
How about those who just met mishaps and are lying on the hospital now?
It dawned upon me that some of those people fight very hard for time to fly and recover, especially those who are still carrying hope and knowing their life purpose. Given an option, some might choose to end their 'journey' in order to escape their sufferings.
What if i am given the option during that moment?
Which one would i choose?
It seems to me that the road to the latter is much wider; tempting enough to end the persecution and confusion which have been robbing me.
It is simply selfish, but it's not blissful.

At that point of time, the image of God appears in my mind. Without thinking any further, I immediately made a short prayer.
I love the usual peacefulness whenever i enter that realm.

The black clouds diminish much faster than i thought as soon as I saw her.
Her aura is truly amazing and radiating.
My depleted vessel seems to be repleting with fluids.
Her delicate voice which has been used to ask me for concern.
Her skills and patience I admire the most.
You are the most wonderful woman I have ever known.

Love you mom~~

Unwavered Grace

2008-09-21T09:36:00.000-07:00

After attending the course, I managed to make a quick pace and turned up for Jimmy's birthday gathering at Sakura.
Everytime I see the smile and laughter that CG people are sharing, I would ask myself when was the last time that I truly laughed heartily with them.
I was sure Jimmy was exuberant that night after collecting plenty of juicy gifts.

Zm came over my place and picked me up for supper. It was another roller-coaster for us. The gnashing issues over relationship were not what it seems to be. It's vexing that we have to finish the whole bowl of tasty clam chowder before we could comprehend the exact situation; we are too greedy by nature. When it is tasty, we tend to crave for more. And by the time we discover that we have fallen into the crack, it's already too late to avoid it.

My look is terrible when I just wake up

Jason Mraz kick start my day

I was glad that he came over for service this morning. Somehow the sermon spoke directly to people who need it. The image of Parkway and Roxy areas doesn't give much impression, but the connectivity that these places have with me, are truly intense. Skateboard, Cycling, Pooling, Lan Gaming along with secondary school buddies. I miss those times.

Got our cut at Pointers

I was supposed to do a short dance performance for NUS Mid-Autumn outreach at Riverwalk, but it seemed that there were limited time to go through the run.
Unfortunately, I couldn't avoid having to stand on the stage. I was voted to dress and dance like Chang-Er for my group. The game was a kick even without the short commercial;dance.
Somehow, I was voted as the best imitator and rewarded with Rocher.
I lost my ear piece for my I Pod. :(

The day has finally come to an end after watching a lifeless score line 1-1 between the 2 soccer giants(Man U and Chelsea) at Liquid Kitchen.
I still love Chelsea ever since primary school.
Hopefully, they will crown the Premier League this season.

~He is mighty to save~
~Conquered the grave~

Acquisition of Merrill

2008-09-17T08:07:00.000-07:00

The news of Merrill Lynch being bought over by Bank of America has caused an uproar in US financial markets.
Dreadful woes are inevitable for certain investors who have to remain standby 24hours.
This crisis in US reminded me of the belief conflict in 9/11 that left a huge crack in the country stability politically as well as reputation.
How fragile has US been becoming?
Nobody expected this to happen.
Congrats to those who are holding their shares.
Wondering if Temasek Holdings really hold their shares in billions.
Somehow I have an affinity with 'Merrill Lynch'. Haha

Let's see the ride for the week.
Zm and Liling fetched me from Aljunied after my tuition with the impressive Subaru.
There are times when my ego compel me to try the engine on my own. But the thought of the risk refrained me from achieving that intention. We had few games of pool in Meridian with his peeps and had a brief supper in Geylang.
I guess it must be tough for someone, who was unwell, to take the gear.
Thanks and sorry for the trouble.
Wish that I could take your place and placate your outraged uneasiness.
There went my struggle to get up for lecture the next morning.

4 Projects and mid term tests have been piling up.
Term break does not mean much to me even if it is commencing for the coming week.

My mugging gears

Proverbs 18:9(KJV): "He also that is slothful in his work is brother to him that is a great waster."

I have to be prepared to stay in school and study on my own until late.
My brother fetched me in school after his OT.
And visited my relatives, who are on vacation in town.

I am looking forward to Formula 1 events!
Hopefully the response from my friend is optimistic.

Story of Trina

2008-09-10T10:23:00.000-07:00

Ever since you were being bought over by my tuition kids' family,
you were resilient in guarding the house.
When everyone is sleeping,
you never failed to remain standby throughout the night.
You jumped and barked excitedly at the sight of the food.
But were given cold treatment as you were seen to behave disobediently
Until one fine day,
when you were caught for not being yourself,
you were sent to the vet for treatment.
Two days after the treatment,
you were found lying unconsciously on the floor.
By the time you were sent to the vet again,
it was to no avail of revitalizing you back again.
And you were just two and half years old.
Diagnosed with Bronchopulmonary illness.
I have checked that your breed average lifespan is about 12-15 years.
You were indeed too young to leave this world.

You have taught me one thing,
"To remain dutiful until the end"
~Trina~

Windy and meandering road

2008-09-03T09:28:00.000-07:00

Beating against the rustling wind and dreary wet road,
my brother drove us to Bugis and had 'Lai Lai' Taiwanese food for supper.

The food tells me how my Mom used to enjoy the food
when she was studying in Taiwan and how she had gained weight.

It was delicious as I couldn't help but to gobble down the food.
I forgot to bring my phone which is my only source of photo-taking.

I led him to Ang Siang Road and the place is filled with Singapore heritage.

Thereafter, there is this meandering road which is known as 'racing road' along south Buona Vista road, where it is believed that people used to race in the past.

I coached my brother to let me drive from Nus back to our place.

It was rather an achievement for me as I could park the truck neatly.

~home sweet home~
Psalm23:1 The Lord is my shepherd, I have all that I need.

2008-08-31T03:51:00.000-07:00

Upon reaching September,
I am quite pleased that I found a new place to stay.
And it is at Bukit Batok.
Though, it's a bit far. But I ain't the choice.
All thanks to Regina, Zm's friend.

Get to meet NAFA's friends and caught BAYBEATs live at Esplanade.

Due to teacher's day,I draw a scenery for my teacher
and I got a favourite giant oatmeal raisin
cookie which is ridiculously as huge as my palm
and I manage to bite half of it!

Unbelievable

A simple sketching of my thought

Under the lukewarm sun accompanied by hustling clouds,
you can see a control bridge which at the middle near the seashore,
as if it stands as a lighthouse which guards the place throughout the day.
The sound of the calm waves is so gentle and beautiful as they are climbing up the shore neatly.

Such natural breath of salty air, has caused much appreciation
for the two young girls,
who are plodding and playing near the seashore.

The beauty and order of nature,
is what we hardly see in urban society.

Let's take a deep breath
and
gaze your surrounding places, people, features, etc.
Close your eyes,
and think only about the important thing that you need to do
At this point of life,
when the ride is getting grumpier,
you may face the risk of burning out.
Missing out the planning
and
you may lose your direction further.

I admit that I am loss as well sometimes.
I just feel that I have fallen into the big crack.
And
it is so hard to climb out from that pit.
dark and gloomy.
I couldn't open my eyes though my eyes are opened.
and
I am afraid it is gonna be a very long long time
before I could truly see the sun.

Timbre Fest

2008-08-27T08:39:00.000-07:00

"Music is so melodious as it creates different sort of emotion in your heart"

Renee, Rick Steele, 53A, Ublues, Soulfellas were there to perform at UCC in my campus.
Of all the bands, I prefer 53A the most.

Only one- yellowcard, Miserly-paramore, yellow-coldplay, I don't love you, Chemical Romance

"What time is it?"
"It's Beer time"

“Life is very short and there's no time, for fussing and fighting my friend. I have always thought that it's a crime, so I will ask you once again: try to see it my way, only time will tell if I am right or I am wrong. While you see it your way, there's a chance that we might fall apart before too long. We can work it out.” The Beattles

Fever week

2008-08-24T06:22:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary, I am struck with sore throat, headache, flu and cough since Friday. And I was amazed that I could still wake up at 8 am to attend the lecture given my condition. My lesson ended by 10 and so I was given the time for idling until my cell group at night.

To my surprise, many people didn't attend the meeting that night due to medical and events purposes. I was glad that I could make it there.

Sometimes, I wonder if our CG meeting is just a time for gathering and listen to the sermon and perhaps attending for the sake of fulfilling self-accountability and satisfying attendance record.

I am quite saddened that most of us tend to take it as a routine rather than seeking the original purpose of the meeting. CG meeting should be a gathering where people should be cheerful, comfortable and making use of the gift of fellowshipping among Christian families.

In fact for myself, I am struggling with these areas. I wonder how amazing it is gonna be if all of us could gather as a family rather than maintaining the fellowshipping at superficial level.

Zm and I were suppose to attend the service together this morning. But My sore throat exacerbated when I woke up. Probably, I didn't have a good night rest as I kept coughing non-stop. And I never know the voracious midget who slept beside me, occupied so much of my bed space.:p

The weather is unfavorable as we soaked ourselves in the rain during our journey to national library so as to catch up with our school work. Anyway, I apologized for being not taking good care of my health and caused so much inconvenience. Haha.

Cheers to Fred Perry!
*Drool*

20082008!

2008-08-20T09:31:00.000-07:00

Let's look at the date today!
It's 20/08/2008
It happened only once a year.
See how the day goes.

Isn't he adorable?

Model student of the year.

Hagen was too shy in front of the shot, and I had difficulties in coaching him to smile

A rare fizzy drinks from him
His academic likewise is on par and perhaps even better than me 9 years ago when I was doing my PSLE.

Sometimes I feel that he is growing up at a tremendous rate as he has learned the art of drinking.

Another surprise was that I have a complimentary pass to California fitness for 2weeks as my dear brother applied for the membership. Hopefully, he could make the best use of the facs.

I tried driving his company pick-up truck from the coffeeshop to the carpark below my place. And I didn't expect the truck is so patience and disobedient and it stalled twice.

The path to Clark Quay

2008-08-16T10:32:00.000-07:00

Hitting the entertainment centre seemed to be our past time favourites.
Reminiscing about the past when we were so young and innocent.
Having KFC for dinner was truly extraordinary for people who hardly have fast food.

The treat of Mochis from Midget Bro Zm garnished our appetites completely. Chocolate Vanilla and Mango Mochis

Setting out towards Clemenceau...

This queer structure of the building which belongs to Chicago University caught our attention.

I got a shock out of my life when a black figure pulled out the heavy door and peeked at us out of the sudden. And somebody couldn't help laughing at me.How amazing it was when we had reached Clark Quay in just one wink.
Miraculously, we were not exhausted at all after walking for several miles.
The fun, the joy, the woes, the ideas, the beliefs, matters of life.
Thanks for being there Bro.
You extend both of your hands while I am drowning.
You lend me your blanket while I am sleeping and how i wish you have no portion for the blanket at all. Haha.
People says nothing last forever. But God's words and wonderful plan remain in us so long as we don't give up.

It was the third time of this year that Hong An bumped into us.
A memory to be remembered for this shot by the river side.

Biking Time

2008-08-12T07:36:00.000-07:00

Post National Day activities. You wouldn't expect that we went cycling when school was starting the next day.

Every journey comes with a single step

Sometimes money cannot buy happiness and laughter

If you would ask me what is the precious gift, I would choose 'Time' as it is the precious gift to me. It is so hard to ask for a time even from your best friends as they are busy with their own life. Sometimes, even when the time is provided, it is not spend qualitatively.

Memory and time often fly like a dust if you don't grab and capture the moment

It is quite sad that every good thing has to come to an end. "Flames to dust, Lovers to friends", Nelly Furtado. But this is life, we have to face the fact and reality.

2008-08-12T07:02:00.000-07:00

"Push yourself again and again until the final buzzer sounds" quotes by legendary player Larry Bird (Boston Celtics). He is truly a remarkable player. One of the few whites who made an impact in black American NBA games.

We had our tea break in O Leary. Bestie Aaron threw us a great treat for the day. And we hope he would do that more often. Hehe!

(Photo taken below Singapore Flyer )
It's amazing to witness the creativity of human who is created by God.

Second hand serenade

2008-08-10T08:18:00.000-07:00

This song was written by John Vesely. It was dedicated to serenade his wife firstly, followed by the rest of the world who would be serenaded after listening to this song. Therefore, he comes up with the name 'Second Hand Serenade' band.

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

Redang Adventure

2008-08-08T20:37:00.000-07:00

The road was dark and the journey was long.

PSPs kept us engaged in WLan World
The Sun was bright and the weather was lovely
Diver units were ready to go for our first operation on Redang Bay Beach
First night venture

Whiskies Cola and Budweiser

Soccer by the Beach

This is not FloridaJungle or Underwater?

Jungle!
Second Operation commenced. Fish Wars!
Cant live without MUSIC!

Roller Coaster

2008-08-08T20:15:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,
It has been so long since the last time i update my blog. So many things had happened over the past few weeks. The slides of life events are so compact as they flash past before my eyes. Some people say that if you never take a deep breath and pause the momentum of life, you will fail to capture the beauty and thrill of the events. But life is like a roller coaster. It will not be exciting if you pause the ride halfway. Full of up and down is the nature of life. Otherwise, life is not that challenging to remain on. Problems come and go. It depends on how you see them and handle them. God is unchanging, seek him and he will definitely help you. Let's enjoy the ride

Florida Sum

2008-07-21T19:23:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,
It was Sharon Sum birthday on 20th Sunday. I was really beat after the Alumni games, I had legs and thighs cramps. My body was in fatigue and dehydration mode. Fortunately, Sister Ting just stay nearby. So I could get the refugee chance and get myself dressed up before the party.

Sister Ting and me

I try to carry the gun that is printed on my shirt.

My spiritual family E427Birthday Girl, Sum on top left, Sister Ting, Granny Apple and Nurse Min (playboy nurse):P

Alumni meet in SR 08

2008-07-21T11:09:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,
Today was my Alumni Match. We only get to meet up once a year. I missed the games last year as I couldn't remember the events that I had that time. We played 6 matches altogether. And we were totally drained and extremely exhausted. My skin was red and burnt just like any of the lobster that ya can find in food court. My junior, Elon came to play for us. He used to play with for the first 3 months before he went to SAJC. He kept telling me how regretful he was to leave SR and join SA. He wished he could stay with us for 2 years and complete his A level here. How time flies..

Just about to DUNK!

No way!

My favourite number is still 10!

We played 6 matches altogether.
And lost in semifinal. We were leading for whole 9 minutes 57 seconds. The score was 21-20.Unfortunately, the opponent scored 3 points in the last 3 seconds. It was rather dramatic as Dawei missed blocking the ball by few cm while the opponent player let the ball flew to the air. It was bitter for most of us to see that the ball went into the net. However, our opponent let us played for the final as they had to leave. By that time, most of us did not have the heart to play again. There went another bitter escape in our final. We always lost in either semifinals and finals to the same team every year. And i believe most of us hate to admit it as we didnt do our job to practice on our own.

Healthy morning!

2008-07-16T06:21:00.000-07:00

Various colors of APPLE Tees and accessories

I met Beng and Zm after hip hop class. We'd Mos Burger at Plaza Sing for short dinner. We then continued our journey to Serangoon to have supper with Gabriel and Jx and discussed about the trip. Home sweet home at Zm's...

We jogged this morning along the highway. Love the fresh air and the greeneries alongside Sengkang Eastway. I felt so fresh when i went to work today. The sales was rather bad and i guess it was on the verge of closing down and retrenching part timers staff like me!
Darn!

Another Movie escape

2008-07-13T07:28:00.000-07:00

I had another show, Hancock on Sunday night. My spree for movies this week was absurd. It had been so long since I last watched a movie before Hellboy2. Guess the last show i watched was acted by Patrick Damsey. I cant remember what's the title of that movie. I spent the night at Gary's residence.

Movie Bonanza

2008-07-12T07:14:00.000-07:00

I had dinner with Steward and Stevi at Raffles City after i have finished my work. She's flying off to Korea on Monday. She told me that Steward misses me a lot. He used to be my tuition kid. Somehow I am not teaching him anymore due to my hectic schedules. He made a ruckus as I was not able to go over their place for the night. Rather petty but adorable boy he is. Stevi and I had a hard time of taming and appeasing him. Thanks to the burger meal as it helped to calm him down.
I met the gang for Hellboy2 afterwards. Gary ditched me and he had wasted his movie ticket since it had already been paid. He fainted halfway in his room as he had not been sleeping for ridiculous 48hours. Nobody sat on my right throughout the show. Hongkong Cafe was our next destination. Guess I was gonna be exhausted for service on Sunday morning.

Mango Tango!

Exhausted Thurs

2008-07-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,
I dragged my feet and went to work this morning. I had the intention of taking off day as I am extremely drained. I went over to meet Gary after my tuition at kembangan. Dozed off a few times while teaching. It was truly embarrassing for a tutor to sleep. Darn it! Gary couldn't sleep for the whole morning as well. But he is still widely awake and strong enough to accompany me. Time do fly very fast. Holiday is going to an end soon. But I try not to think about the ending as the thought of it acts as catalyst of the end product. I gotta think and make use of every moment and seconds especially with friends and people around us. Respect and being socialize with others truly fill my day.

Apple Day!!

2008-07-07T10:37:00.000-07:00

I went over to Gerard's place the night before and watched Wimbledon Final. Nadal won the championship finally. We turned in early as we planned to jog and swim the next day. He just moved in to this place not long ago. It is right behind NUS, The Foliage. It was cosy and classy.

View from Balcony
We jogged to Fong Seng and bought Prata. The sight of NUS building sent some chill down my spine. I dislike the competitiveness and stress of the study life over in NUS. Outright terrible. Haha. We made a short relax over the pool. We discuss about paintings as he appreciates arts a lot.
I left for work afterwards. I was late for half an hour. But, I love to start my day early and do something healthily. It makes me fresh and jovial for the rest of my day. :)

Today was a special occasion. We had outing in the evening at KBox, Cineleisure. So we close the shop early as 5. Everybody was riding highly today.

Me and Ryan (comic Stripe)

We were trying to disturb Alfred who was on the line

Notorious Kids in Apple Centre

We had 4 cars in total total to bring all of us over. We booked a suite that costs at least 1k. It was furnished with large screen, pool table as well as buffet.

Huge Martell (Drooling)

Sushi Buffet

There were so many of us, 17 and we had to take turn in choosing the songs! The girls were good at singing those Chinese songs especially by Jay zhou and Jolin. While the guys truly rocked! We sang English songs! My boss even surprised us with his cantonese vocal skills. I realize that my company had so quite a number of talented singers that i don't come across often. It was an awesome night. Shawn drove us home. I guess many of us like the boss, Rick. He was helpful, generous and hilarious. I do learn something from him as the manager. He is humble and hilarious. He jokes with his employees and he sent all of us home. It drives us to work harder and yearn to contribute further to the company whenever he gives us tasks. I am so blessed to work in Apple and work for him. My colleagues are fun loving and entertaining as well. I will definitely learn to be like him when I have become a manager myself.

2008-07-04T12:48:00.000-07:00

I cant believe that there were so little fishes in the shop today. No customer on sight. It just look like a monday to me. I accompanied Alfred, my colleague to deliver 2 I macs and 1 macbook pro to Intercontinental Hotel. He drove quite reckless, Sports car pattern. Our customer was paying us in US dollars.

Holy Cow! US$ 8000 on sight

I thought it was US$8000, but it was only US$4500. But, I did my calculation wrongly as we wanna exchanged it in money changers. That was a bad move as we bargained for greater exchange rate and even had the intention of gaining the profit. haha.

Louis's car!

When the mission is done, we went to Bugis to buy packets of duck rice and Katong Laksa for our colleagues. Simple as it goes. The duck rice stall was familiar. I remembered i ate with Gilbert, vivien, serene and ry. It was so near yet so far. Time really flies.
As soon as the shop was gonna close, these 2 customers bought laptops. And I had to serve them. There goes my late Cell Group meeting..

What hurts the most

2008-07-01T10:01:00.000-07:00

I have listened to this song for quite sometimes dating few months back. It touches my heart a lot.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

I love Apple

2008-07-01T07:35:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

It was a joke today. Suddenly, almost everyone in my company wear slippers and berm to work today, while I am in a normal attire. Nobody informed me that it is annual stock taking today! I cant get to wear slippers! I really miss wearing sloppy attire. Haha.
Shi Yun, another of my colleague is another joke. She skipped school and came to work today. Probably, she has problem with her lecturer in RP.
My boss, Rick was so generous. He treated everyone Sakae sushi for lunch. Get to eat my favourite meals, Unagi, salmon and tuna brawl!!
I skipped dance again today. I have no mood to go. Guess, they will kick me out soon. I hope it's not too early. I don't have the motivation to dance. Oh Lord, help me get back to my old self again. I wanna be more cheerful and confidence.

Holland Village

2008-06-29T07:37:00.001-07:00

I went to send my mom off with my brother today at Harbour Front. I just saw someone who really looks like her a lot. My brother also think so. It made me reminisce about those past. Sigh..
I went to meet Aaron in town and chatted a while. He helps me a lot in directing my path and my purpose. I feel so blessed to have him around.
Afterwards, I met Gerard at Holland V. He brought me to De Paulo Pizza to eat. Love the place and the ambience a lot. It is totally different from traditional Katong area that i used to hang out at. Ordered caramel latter at coffee beans there. I didn't expect the size of regular is so large. Gerard complained that it was too sweet. So he couldn't help me finish it. There goes home sweet home. He sent me home.

Boys Brigade Day

2008-06-28T09:50:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

This year of 2008 is truly a significant year for me. It's the time for me to stay stronger and leap higher. Unsurmountable amount of sorrow filled me. Too much tears to be shed. My mom just teared and I have no idea why. Probably, because I have not been spending enough time with her. I am so selfish. I dont know if i regret going for the Boy's Brigade dance performance and went to work instead of going out with her to Johor Bahru together with my brother. But it is all over. I gotta make a decision today that I am gonna make my parents happy. I vow to give them a good life. And I truly believe it!

I miss Marine Parade!

2008-06-28T08:55:00.000-07:00

I went to Tao Nan primary school for the dance performance. I took 197 from Clementi. The journey was so long. I miss the katong area. Katong Shopping Centre, Amber road, Parkway Parade and so on. It held my precious childhood memories. I used to stay there and cycle around the area. I knew Telok Kurau and Eunos area quite well. I even knew the secret place to hide.

I was late by half an hour. Luckily, the performance has not started. So I can get to watch the steps that Fred and I have been teaching.

Junior Dance Crews!!

Congrats to Melvin for winning the best BB's award!I miss this place! I used to play Basketball with secondary school mates in this CC. Most of Singapore Best Youth players played here.

Finally, work has ended. I am quite impressed of my sales skills. I really enjoy my work in Apple. I have fun colleagues to chat and play around. Thebosses are polite and hilarious as well.

I went to Bedok. But the bastard ZiMing and Beng were so late. They made me waited for 45 minutes at Bedok station! Soon we arrived at the condo opposite Aquarius. Here we go!

Masquerade mask is on. We are flying from hero to zero!

Happy Big Day Gabriel! I am so proud of you. Thanks for the sharing session with us.

Three Corridors! Jeremy was not around!

2008-06-25T08:54:00.000-07:00

My bro, me and mom on Sunday at Intercontinental Hotel

The piano is too small for me. But I hope to own it one day in my own living room. Love the melodious tunes from it.
It helps to soothe your day and your problems. Such invention.....

God is good

2008-06-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

It was another day of escape today.
I did my run through at apple and tuition as usual.
This time it's gonna be different.
I am starting to learn to keep a positive outlook in my life.
Proverbs 15:14 tells us that if we have God's understanding, we can ask Him for knowledge to overcome every trial and problem we face. God is bigger than our grief, sorrow, pain and every problem that any of us could face. We must never blame Him for our troubles, as the devil is the trouble maker, not our Lord. God is there for us, to help us overcome anything the enemy has done, or is trying to do. God is the one that will rescue us and help us in our hour of need. However, we must not be like the fool who feeds on his folly. We should not blame others as well as God. We must give our heartaches and troubles to God and keep a cheerful attitude no matter what is going on in our lives. We need to remember, " this too, shall pass" as God is eternal and has a good plan for our future.

2008-06-17T08:32:00.000-07:00

Here is the colleague who has been fired.
Bye Michael..

2008-06-14T07:58:00.000-07:00

Congratulation to my dear Aaron!
We have been staying together through thick and thin for the past 7 years.
And now i have seen you achieving another milestone by commissioning from OCS.
I am so proud of you. I teared as I watched you threw your berrett up.

Lost

2008-05-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I feel so empty today. Even though I went for Hip Hop session by An An in O school, I still feel empty. My dancemates were so full of zeal that they wanna whack somemore at Republic Polytechnic. I turned down the offer as it will be too far for me to go home if i join them.

On my way home, I think about my life. Somehow i regret that i fail to cherish those moments who care and concern about me. I just feel so lost. I know it's gonna be like this when i start to enter the workforce. So it's gonna hurt a bit right now. There goes "Oh Lord", the song that i wrote.

I wanna sing a song,
That I can pour my heart out.
Through strums and rhythms,
Every day and night.
Though my neighbours complain,
I still continue to sing.
The feeling of emptiness,
It's unbearable cold.

Oh Lord....
Give me strength.
Show me your path,
So I can walk again.
Oh Lord...
Teach me Love.
I am not perfect.
So change me inside out.

Well, thing just doesn't get any better. I wonder why is it so tough to handle emotions. It is amazing how big size and superior we are, yet we are so weak inside.
Yet it is another bitter escape today.

Morning..

2008-05-27T09:55:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,
I just sang the song that i wrote last week. I am thinking of how to make the song beautiful. After several thoughts, i have learnt that beautiful song prevails when we sing with our heart out.

I just vacuumed my room, changed my bedsheets and folded clothes. I arranged my sneakers neatly as well. I guess i have 9 pairs of shoes including bball shoes, rock climbing and soccer boots :)
Since I am at home today, it is a duty for me to do housework. I am hardly at home as I have too much freedom, but i am able to discipline myself. Hehex.

I gotta leave for work now. I will see ya later.

Uncle's Mat

2008-05-27T00:08:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,
I felt quite lost when i was on my way home from tuition. I spent the night before at uncle's mat place in Toa Payoh. I used to stay there before i moved to Clementi. We have quite a strong bondage in friendship. He is a senior pastor in Bethesda church in Ang Mo Kio. There went the night as he shared with me biblical scriptures. I realize that my biblical knowledge is so shallow. Basically, i only hear a short message from the service and cell group. I feel that most of it are life applications. But we do not really try to understand the meaning in it. And so i pray for guidance.

God is good

2008-05-24T08:01:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,
It was a bright and sunny morning at Doctor's place. I dislike the moment when i have to leave early in the morning from there. Drawing apart from someone that you are close with, is a bitter feeling. It was another bitter escape today. Come to think of it, I have changed. I have become more filled with emotion now. I have no idea how i got it. So i seek God for help. I read the book 'Kiss Dating Goodbye' by Joshua Harris. It told me that the feeling of loneliness means that God wanna us to draw closer to him and seek for him. And so i prayed and placed the rest of the day into God's hands.
I went to Pasir Ris Secondary school together with dance mate, Fred to teach Boys and Girls Brigade Hip Hop. The boys were so disorganized and disobedient. It was not easy to tame them down. But i see it as a challenge to teach them. We selected the best 8 boys and 8 girls out of all of them. Phew, and i was late for work.
The sales was not bad, i managed to sell 1Macbook and Macbook Air today. Thank you God!
My feet are sore and I had to accompany Jian Ning to town to get his banana republic clothes. *droolinx*.

In Banana Republic.

I gotta work hard to get those rare items!

Multimedia Integrated

2008-05-21T19:02:00.000-07:00

The working environment in Multimedia Integrated(Apple Centre) is quite slack. The bosses are fun people. I am so tempted to get an Ipod Touch. The screen is rather big and clear. Love the movies in it.
Watching Step Up 2006 while waiting for my colleague to take the I mac CPU. It was freaking heavy.
Thereafter, i rushed to Kembangan for tuition until 10.30. I gotta meet up with Gary for supper near Siglap Centre.
He was in high spirit as he won back several matches of betting. He even treated me for Hokkien noodles and Mee Goreng. Man, i gotta treat him back next time. I went to his place and stayed over. Did some push-ups together.

He taught me how to be strong inside.
Miss your company Bro!

We played WII and guitar freak hero until 4am. Gosh!I gotta wake up for work the next day. Apple, here I come!!

Sunday Spree

2008-05-19T18:43:00.000-07:00

It was a bright and clear morning. I had to drag my feet to wake up for morning service to expo.
I feel that we tend to go services for the sake of not making our Cell Group Leader unpleased. But Thus, we should try to remind ourselves that the word of God and the spiritual atmosphere from the service is always awesome. I am sure that our whole week of toughness is revitalized every time we go for services.
Thereafter, my cell group went for Prayer Meeting at Riverwalk. And i met up with Gary, Aaron and Yee Tat in town. We were planning to watch movie, but Yee Tat didn't wanna join. So we hung around at starbucks in Wisma instead.

                                                                                                   With Gary, Aaron and Yee Tat

We went to Wala-Wala and met Aaron's army buddies. We were talking about the girls that his friends brought. The Beer was bitter. Almost got drunk (uneasy feeling).

God is good

2008-05-16T10:07:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I would like to express gratitude to God for many things. Firstly, I got myself this position in Apple Funan Mall as salesperson. It is quite new to me. The insight of communication with the customers is fantastic. Secondly, I have made a new friend, Jian Ning. I got to know him from Rou. He is a great chap to hang out with as well as a computer consultant to seek for. Thirdly, I have got the chance to choreograph for Boys Brigade and Girls guide ministry in my church. I feel that i do not have the confident to do it as i start to learn dance not long ago.
The indonesian service was great just now. The message in summary is to encourage all of us to reach out the suburbs in other part of Indonesia. Not forgetting, all the Guccis and LVs that the ladies carried, made me scared. Hahax.

Happy Mama's Day

2008-05-11T07:20:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,

Today is a Mother's Day. And my mom is not here with me. I wonder how is she doing right now in Indo.
The drama in the service and the sharing of dedication to moms really touched me so deep that i teared, especially
on the part that the boy mentioned how his mom used to tell bedtime story to him.
During those days, my mom used to tell me bedtime story before going to bed. Whenever i was sick, she never failed to stay by my side
and ensure my condition was on the right track. Herbal tea, chrysanthemum tea, green bean soup, fish and chicken porridge are all the 'cuisine' that i have enjoyed.
As years go by, we tend to be so absorbed with our school and social life that we have neglected our parents especially in this competitive society. Many of us tend to learn to be so money-minded, selfish and insensitive towards our parents. The relationship is aggravated when our parents try to control us, but they actually truly concern about us. Sometimes, i feel so sorry for my parents as i do not bother to contact them and even give a simple inquiry if they are doing fine over there.
Anyway, i have made the card to my mom which consisted of my picture and my el-der's using photo shop. All credits to Dr. Meaty as she guides me along using such software.